Sunday, August 31, 2008

Happy National day!!! And Happy Birthday for some very special babies

Oh yes, Happy Birthday Betsy!!! You've finally turned 17! Hope you have a great birthday celebration and good good good luck for your trials!!

-love, Tricia and Yoke Wan

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Keep walking...

Yay. Another serious post.

Not long ago, I found the blog of lecturer from TOA while browsing the net. Thinking that it would be interesting, I clicked on the link to view his blog. I have to admit, I was feeling a little mischievous at this point; hoping to find some information that I can (probably) use against him. Yea, I'm mean that way...=/

Okay, summary on my P.O.V towards this lecturer:

It's not that I have a problem with him, but there was a period where I had extreme dislike for him due to something that happened between us after the first few weeks the semester commenced. It was just his attitude, he always seemed so sarcastic and ignorant towards how other people felt!!! (Truthfully, I was just being oversensitive at that time XP) But when he suddenly became very generous when giving me marks for my final project, my perception of him totally changed. Haha. I know, it sounds cheap, but before that I thought that he was some cold hearted guy who enjoyed torturing his students,so I was pretty taken aback when he gave me some words of encouragement, and 4/5 for progress marks.*cough* I even felt kinda guilty for holding a resentment against him...

So, while reading his blog, I discovered a lot of intriguing things about him. Things that made me laugh, ponder and also "sweat in disbelief". It was a very ...very revealing blog, so very personal. So much so that when I read the first blog entry, I wondered,"Hey, is this really him..??" I continued to enjoy reading his blog, but as I went on(well, actually I was reading starting from his most recent blog entry), I realized that I started to delve deeper and deeper into his personal problems, his struggles in life, and,(as I see it) his dire need to make sense of himself and everything that happens around him.

This wasn't the lecturer I thought I knew.

It appalled me that he was...very much like the rest of us, students. Despite putting up a professional front in class, he is just a normal person. He knew he had so much more to learn in life and he never justified himself for mistakes he had done. It's weird, did I expect him to have reached the highest attainable level of human emotional and mental development? (If there is something like that..) Just because he was a trained professional and an adult, I assumed that he probably wouldn't have the same set of problems that most teenagers and young adults have- the struggle to find our identity and place in the world. I felt as though I had just taken a peek at the face behind the mask he had been wearing.

I couldn't read anymore.

It was quite some time after that when I decided to go to bed. Lying in bed with a restless mind, I thought about all the stuff I had read from his blog. I wondered, if I could ever look at him in the same light again. I knew too much. How can I ever face him again? I should have stopped reading when I could. I felt ashamed at myself. I'm still so naive and childish. It was another one of those moments where I felt like I hadn't grown much since I was 13. I'm so stupid...

But then, a realization suddenly hit me. This lecturer, he isn't afraid to admit his problems (although he constantly thinks about them), and he strongly believes that he can be a better person someday. Although he can't let go of certain things in life, he took other things in his stride. His biggest flaw is that, he can't forgive himself for mistakes he have done. I felt as though I could relate to him. It was only after that that I fell asleep. Thinking, " I can't wait for the next semester to start."

Life is a never ending learning process.
I seemed to have I understood those words a little deeper after that. I have to start telling myself, "Don't worry about falling, because that's what it takes to learn how to fly."

You and I still have a long way to go, mind joining me in this journey? =)

No day but today originally uploaded by Hans van de Vorst in Flickr

Monday, August 25, 2008

I don't like giving titles for blog entries the Avril concert going on or not..??? Cuz' I'm really confused!! Seems like it is... isn't it? It had better be!!

AND....The Olympics are finally over! I don't mean that I want it to end, but it's finally paid off for some of the atheletes who have been working very hard, and it's been 16 long days!! I watched a little of the closing ceremony, umm..oh, yesterday night, with my family. I thought it was pretty moving that so many people from different parts of the world, gathered in one place to compete for glory. When I saw all the participants waving and cheering happily in the field, I just felt like I was there with all of them, and that we were all united. I don't know if any of you felt that way, but it was pretty overwhelming for me. Seeing all that, I felt like I couldn't wait for the next Olympics, China did such a good job and I'm really proud of them! They also bagged so many gold medals! Great job guys!!!

I intended to watch all the performances but the stupid ads kept popping up so I left and continued with my figure studies....I could still hear the music from where I was working at....3 down, 5(or more) to go!!

I need more references.....><

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Hi....I'm back from the dead, hopefully....

Okay! I know that it's been about 3 months since I've last updated my blog, but I'm back~ *ahem* temporarily....Anyway, I've just completed one semester in TOA and I'm still alive and kicking!! Trust me when I say that THAT is an achievement...

Okay, I'm not gonna say much about my first semester in TOA, because there really is too much to cover in one blog post. I kinda wish that I had the Internet access to blog about during the last 3 months. But, it's too late for all that. Anyhow,I met lots of great people, made awesome friends, and did things I never thought I possibly could. It might be a little early for me to say that being in TOA is a life changing experience for me, but I already feel that way. Haha, I feel like I should have been at TOA a long time before. (The people who hang out with me a lot have heard me say this many many times XP) I can't wait for the next semester to start! Although I'm really praying...PRAYING...PRAYYYIIINNGGG that I pass every damn subject!!! I'm only expecting to retake my Malaysian Studies for the next semester, hahahah....

By the way, have you guys ever heard of "The Young Turks"? This is a description of themselves from their website:

The Young Turks, the first nationwide liberal talk show and first live, daily Internet TV show, is a funny, smart, irreverent and entertaining look at politics, sex, news, pop culture, current affairs and personal stories.

So they say.

I only knew about them after watching this vid Betsy told me about. Oh yea, I forgot to mention, Malaysia is BANNING Avril Lavinge's concert. Uh huh, it's true, it's all over the net. I wonder why Hitz. fm is still advertising the concert. Just type "Malaysia bans Avril lavinge" and see how much shit you can find.

This is quoted from the website Weasel Zippers:

Kuala Lumpur-Malaysian opposition Islamic party Parti Islam SeMalaysia (PAS) has demanded that the government ban pop superstar Avril Lavigne from performing in the country. It said her concert would be an insult to the Merdeka freedom fighters.The Canadian pop singer was scheduled to perform at the Stadium Merdeka on Aug 29, just two days ahead of Malaysia's Independence Day, as part of her world tour.

and this is quoted from

Malaysia's Islamic opposition party, the Pan-Malaysian Islamic Party, is trying to ban Avril Lavigne from playing a show in the Malaysian capital of Kuala Lumpur after deeming the singer's stage moves "too sexy." According to The Associated Press, the youth wing of the party said on Monday (August 18) that the skate rat turned glam-pop singer's August 29 show would promote the wrong values ahead of Malaysia's independence day on August 31. "It is considered too sexy for us. ... It's not good for viewers in Malaysia," party official Kamarulzaman Mohamed said. "We don't want our people, our teenagers, influenced by their performance. We want clean artists, artists that are good role models." Kamarulzaman sent protest letters to the Culture, Arts and Heritage Ministry and Kuala Lumpur's mayor last week, calling for the concert to be canceled.



How damn f***tarded do you have to be to even think of something like that. C'mon, we know you guys are more creative than that, come up with a better excuse, goddammit!! I don't know what crossed their mind to suddenly make such a move, maybe it's for personal, VERY PERSONAL reasons..? Gahhh!! I don't even want to go there. Banning Avril because she's too sexy? Gwen Stefani, maybe(judging by their standards), but Avril??

I wasn't planning to go to the concert, but, really, this reflects so badly on us that it's beyond infuriating!! They have no idea what kind of buzz this would create, just look at all the angry blog entries in the Internet!! Coming back to the vid I mentioned earlier, here it is, prepare to be extremely offended if you're Malaysian:

I don't know who to get more pissed off at, these douche bags or "Malaysia". Both parties really offend me. Anyway, I don't like getting angry, really. And I've reached a level of pissed-off-ness that is really too difficult to describe. SO, I won't care anymore. Tralalala, go banning concerts if you like, I can't attend any of them anyway~

One last message from the fans to "Malaysia":

Avril still says it best~!